Chapter 3- Letting it get to far

I knew this was wrong but to me…it felt so right. I lay down on the cool grass and watched the stars twinkle above me. It wouldn’t be long now and I would be back in my happy place. The only place I felt truly safe from all of the horrors of my life.

I waited for about twenty more minutes and walked to the abandoned mine that I knew all to well. I looked around and saw a silhouette coming towards me.

I smiled happily and ran into his arms.
‘I missed you so much!’ I mumbled into his shoulder
He hugged me tightly and said 'I missed you too, it was torture to have to pretend to even remotely like Jun!' I smiled at that comment. Jun was his fiance. They have been going out since they were teenagers per there parents request.
I felt kind of bad you know. I was tearing him away from his real life. He didn't need to be living in this fairy tale with me. It wasn't healthy for either of us.

 

He released me and pulled out some purple flowers in elegant wrapping. I gasped as he offered them to me.‘I know they are your favorite color ’ He he said quietly and smiled slightly. That's one thing i love about him, hes so sweet and shy. He deserves someone so much better than me.

‘Thank you, it really means a lot to me’
He looked at me with a gleam in his eyes and said ‘they remind me of the day we met’
I smiled remembering.
When I was younger I was never allowed to leave my room as I had explained before, but there is a part of the story I left out.
(attractive face isnt it xD)On this particular night I had gotten very bored of sitting in my room and I could tell my parents were asleep because the screaming had (Finally) stopped.  This was my first night of sneaking out but I was so…driven to do it.


I decided I would go to the beach and try to get my mind off things but when I arrived there was a  party going on. I stuck to the sidelines and tried to sneak over to the far unoccupied side but my eyes were entranced by the scene. It didn't look very fun because most people just mingled but how was i supposed to know if that was proper etiquette? I had never seen a party before.

Suddenly i bumped into someone 'Ow!' I yelped and i heard the other person swear softly.
'Im so sorry!' I said my face turning beet red

'No its ok!' Said the boy with fiery red hair. He looked around and bent down picking something up off the ground
' Here, maybe this makes up for about trampling you' he said playfully as he handed me a single purple flower.
'Thanks..thats my favorite color' i smiled at him warmly and then replied 'But it wasn't your fault, it was mine. I was just....iv never seen a party before in real life so it was a bit overwhelming." i looked down shyly as i admitted this to a total stranger.

He looked at me wide eyed and asked 'Really? Why?'
I pointed to my hair ' Did you not even realize this!? Im half berry. Every one hates me.'
He smiled at me and said 'Those things matter to everyone else but to me..well i think its stupid. A book should not be judged by its cover! To prove to you that there are people who don't hate you i proclaim myself your new best friend! Oh and by the way my name is Eric'
I softened a bit and smiled at him 'Thanks Eric..That means a lot to me'

He patted my shoulder and asked 'So what brings you here?'
'I was just coming to the beach to clear my head I guess’ I told him hesitantly
He nodded ‘I know what that’s like. Are your parents controlling to?’
‘Just the opposite’ I murmured. I looked over his shoulder and I saw a girl approach and he followed my gaze rolling his eyes when he saw her.

Meet me, same place, and same time ok?’ I nodded and the girl walked up to him and basically draped herself on him giving me a dirty look in the process.‘Come on sweetie it’s time to dance!’ he smiled and nodded.

     We ended up meeting frequently but his parents soon found out and they banned there son from seeing me since I was an affair child and you know, a half berry. I guess I could never escape that reputation huh?

I was snapped out of my flashback when I heard Eric calling my name
‘Are you ok? Jazmine..jazmine?’
I looked at him and said
‘Just remembering’ he smiled and led me to the little hill by the mine where we sat wrapped up together till sunrise. I was content but i still had that lurking feeling of wrong. When i told him i had to go he pulled me into a long kiss and as he came up for air he said
'I love you' I stiffened. He had never said this before. I wasn't good for him! This was all so so wrong! Oh god why did i let it get this far!?He felt the change and looked at me seriously. 'Jazmine, was it to soon? We have been seeing each other for years now, I thought you felt the same way...?

I hesitated before responding ‘I cant do this. YOU cant do this. We knew this was wrong. Im so sorry i let it get this far.' I turned around and walked away stiffly with tears pouring down my face. Saying that to him, it felt like i was tearing out my heart and ripping it into a million tiny pieces, so small i would never ever be able to put them back together again.

'WAIT!' He screamed after me, i hated the sound of desperation in his voice. 'Jazmine, please i love you so much! Dont do this to me..just please dont leave me.' He grabbed my shoulder and ,even though it hurt me, i shrugged it off and kept walking.'We just arnt meant to be Eric.' I whispered sadly and i finally felt the last fragment of my heart fall.

Phew! That took me a while, but i worked really hard on it ^-^ I hope you liked it :)


EDIT: Ugh! Blogger is going wonky and is whiting out some of the words :PI thjink i fixed it all but it might still show up for you. If it does please tell me so i can attempt to do something. If the fonts appear to be different sizes i tried to fix that problem but its just not working. Sorry for the 
inconvenience
~Taylor